<3 GOD, JESUS, HOLY SPIRIT. -trinity (durr.):X
<3 my faMiLy. especially my mummy. mUaCkx. :X
<3 my NO.1 passion, MUSIC!!! deahDEAHdeahDEAH... mUaCkx. X)
<3 my NO.2 passion, PHOTOGRAPHY! chingCHINGching! mUaCkx. X)
<3 devOtEd tO GOD de eunice jiE jiE and sElf-tHinK naivE dE evan gOr gOr. mUaCkx. :X
<3 my cOuzziEx. mUaCkx. :X
<3 my darlings. :x
<3 hui ming and prisy. (two of my darlings.) :X
<3 shuaiSHAUI and KAIWAIYINEHH de adam kOr kOr. muackish muack muack!:X
<3 BIG BULLY de albert kOr kOr. muackish muack muack!:X
<3 PIGpig de andy gOr gOr. :x
<3 tallTALL de gOr gOr, jason. :x
<3 cute and fat de di di, bryan.:x
<3 chioCHIO de mEi mEi cum "PING", jolynn.:x
<3 gorjiedimei. \X/ :x
<3 "PIANG", cai yun. :x
<3 "PING! PONG! PIANG!" :x
<3 WATER! the BEST dehydrating lotion and spot clearing cream! XD
<3 ORANGE!
<3 PINK!
<3 SKY BLUE!
<3 LAVENDER!
<3 BLACK!
<3 WHITE!
<3 bible study. :)
<3 youth camp'05. X)
<3 mission trip '06. :)
<3 ROCK THE WORLD concert'06 :D
<3 CCBC, my church youth. :x
<3 RBC's youth too. :x
<3 having very 'jumpy' worship. X)
<3 very FUNNY and 'reality check' sermons. X)
<3 hanging out with the people i love or even the guy! hahas. XD
<3 going overseas with friends or ppl i love. X)
<3 having combined youth with RBC. XD
<3 hanging out with theLOOKALIKES, AH-DAMandMICH.
<3 spending time with my adam kor kor and albert kor kor. :)
<3 talking on the phone with albert kor kor.
<3 being protected by my kor kors. XD
<3 having to go out with my couzziex.
<3 having you around me.:x
<3 frenx from everywhere. :x
<3 waking up late. heex.X)
<3 making up and go out. XD
<3 going out with friends.X)
<3 SHOPPING! XD
<3 SLEEPING! :D
<3 SINGING! :D
<3 SMILING! x)
<3 the 4 Sssss.. (the above four!)
<3 LAUGHING! :)
<3 DANCING! X)
<3 practically everything that got to do with MUSIC. X)
theHATES. PUKE!
but i shall FORGIVE and FORGET.
hate being accused! hate PEOPLE WHO LIKE TO PICK ON ME ALL THE TIME FOR NO PARTICULAR REASON!!! AGH!!(damn them man.) hate backstabbers! hate people that think they are the best!(nobody except GOD is perfect.) hate ACT as ah lian/ah beng! when they are SO NOT! hate liers! (even i do lie sometimes.x)) hate having 'rents bossing around and taking privacy from me! agh!! hate act ke lian to absorb guys' attention. (eww. so gross.) hate those that treat me so warm then after a while then so cold.
theWISHES.:)
~` be more devoted to GOD. (durr.)
~` grow in GOD more and more each day.
~` do my QT regularly. :D
~` combine CCBC's youth with RBC's youth. XD
~` hang out with the RBC's youth more. XD
~` able to go to mission trip'07. :D
~` have the fun people to go to mission trip'07. :) eg. prisy, michelle and adam.
~` have a job that is close to my passions. eg. DJ, freelance photographer.
~` the guy that i like to like me in return. X)
~` have more freedom. (which teen doesn’t want this?)
~` can have more privacy.
~` not so slack!!
~` to go to the best class every year.
~` stop all rumours about me and some odd weirdball.
~` have confidence in myself.
~` have greater hair and hair-do. x)
shout AMEN! (:
theSONG.:)
Beat of my HEART
To the beat of my
To the beat of my
To the beat of my heart
I'm thinking about,
Letting it out.
I wanna give in,
I wanna go out.
Been looking around
I've finally found,
The rhythm of love,
The feeling of sound.
It's making a change,
The feeling is strange.
It's coming right back.
Right back in my range.
Not worried about anything else,
I'm waking up
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart.
[Chorus:]
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
It tears us apart.
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
Now I'm back to the start.
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart,
I'm up from my down.
I turn it around.
I'm making it back,
I'm not gonna drown.
I'm taking a stance.
I won't miss a chance.
I want you to see
I'm not scared to dance.
The way that you feel
Could never be real.
I want you to know I finished the deal.
So I'm sayin to you
I'll always be true.
To the rhythm inside,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart,
[Chorus]
Away Away,
Away Away,
Away Away,
Away Away,
Away Away,
Away Away,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart,
Away Away,
Away Away,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
It tears us apart,
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
Now I'm back to the start,
[Chorus]
Away Away,
Away Away,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart,
Away Away,
Away Away,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart
JESUS will surely be with me ALWAYS, to the VERY END of
age.
18th May 2007 - 11.58pm
Two more minutes to midnight. sighs.. hahas. (: today, i didnt went to school. hmm... i was said to have "stomach cramp", but only i know deep-inside, that its not. i NEVER have serious stomach cramps in my life. i do sometimes but they are always bearable. today, i only have very very minimum. i still can walk like a normal person and everything. i can even run, for goodness sake. hmmm.. if you are clever enough to guess, it gotta do with the him. sighs.. since when i become so pathetic, huhhs? ytd night, we chatted through sms. he cant sleep and so we drank some fermented red grape juice, also known as red wine. he told me he is NOT going to school tmr. and so, i lost my enthusiasm for school. ): and i decided that night, i shall NOT go to school too. so i kinda faked my serious stomach cramp and end up not going to school. but how i know, when i smsed him today, he said he went to school although he was late. because he woke up late. SIGHS!! can somebody please tell me how pathetic and stupid and idoitic and.. and... SIGHS..... forget it. i am hopeless. 简直就是无药可就。 爱上了一个不可能 有开始，有结尾的人。 我真是可悲啊！ 他已经爱上隔壁的女生， 我和那个他， 只会有一个可悲的感情而已。 我还要继续爱他下去吗？
嗨。。。我现在一直叹气。都是你啦！嗨！ i think i'll write in english lahh, hohhs. sighs.. 叹气啊，叹气。。 为什么你一直缠着我啊？！hahas. sorry.. (: sighs.. listening to the radio now, i hear your idol singing a love song, will you one day sing it to me? sighs.. i doubt so, right. sighs...
only yesterday, i found out who he really likes. and sadly, it does not include a I or S or A or B or E or L. )': i just started going gaga over him again. and there he goes,"you dunno who i really like, seriously." 我现在只可以看得到你一个人，我还有别的转弯吗？对我来说，应该只有“放弃“ 这两个字吧。he likes a girl that neither i nor carmen like. to carmen, this is shocking. to me, i just have to face it. im now hearing "first love" by utada hikaru. ytd in class, jolynn and wai ying sang this song. it tamed me from a wild mad girl to a little sheep resting. sighs... you should know why. i was indeed quite shocked when i first heard it from <____>, but... after a while, i realised that i already in the history. i just have to live holding on to the memories we have. and if im lucky enough, i still have space to hope for this memories to relive, which i know is impossible. he already said, if he cant reached that girl's heart, he shall stop persuing love and concentrate on what he is supposed to. sighs... which stands me not even a dim of light.
today, about after school time, <______> smsed me. she was jealous of my everything. she wants to know why is everything for me so good. and while hers, its a total opposite. she even told me that she cried the whole time when she go back home. sighs... is really my everything that good? please think again.. from the outside, yes. from the inside, i dun dare to gurantee. i thought she was referring to yang. but SURPRISINGLY, it was not! its about my results. my results sudddenly becomes so good, and hers dropped like drastically. HEY! i worked hard for it, my darling. so please dun cry, okkays.. like i saidk, you wont be pretty. and DUN listen to that wai ying about yang using black magic to swop us two. she is just trying to make things worse, okkays. trust me, just work harder and everything will be back to the way you wanted. but.. i will work hard too. so lets both 把“林磬杨“ 这个晚八蛋的名字抛到心里最后面的角落，好吗？(: and since you can stop thinking of him now, i give you my best congrats because liking someone for about one year plus and now, trying to forget him now is a very very hard task to do.especially with him right in front of us the whole time. good luck and thank you for trusting me. (:
its 12.58am now. i shall put an end to this. and i hope both me and <______> could put and end to this agony we are going through too. (: 祝我们能永远记得他对我们的爱和珍惜，但在这时此刻，我们也不能因为这些美好的回忆而动摇我们不能再爱他的坚持。加油！！我们是做的得到的！(:
Psalm 68:19 P R A I S E be to the LORD, to GOD our SAVIOR, who daily bears our burdens.
