<3 GOD, JESUS, HOLY SPIRIT. -trinity (durr.):X
<3 my faMiLy. especially my mummy. mUaCkx. :X
<3 my NO.1 passion, MUSIC!!! deahDEAHdeahDEAH... mUaCkx. X)
<3 my NO.2 passion, PHOTOGRAPHY! chingCHINGching! mUaCkx. X)
<3 devOtEd tO GOD de eunice jiE jiE and sElf-tHinK naivE dE evan gOr gOr. mUaCkx. :X
<3 my cOuzziEx. mUaCkx. :X
<3 my darlings. :x
<3 hui ming and prisy. (two of my darlings.) :X
<3 shuaiSHAUI and KAIWAIYINEHH de adam kOr kOr. muackish muack muack!:X
<3 BIG BULLY de albert kOr kOr. muackish muack muack!:X
<3 PIGpig de andy gOr gOr. :x
<3 tallTALL de gOr gOr, jason. :x
<3 cute and fat de di di, bryan.:x
<3 chioCHIO de mEi mEi cum "PING", jolynn.:x
<3 gorjiedimei. \X/ :x
<3 "PIANG", cai yun. :x
<3 "PING! PONG! PIANG!" :x
<3 WATER! the BEST dehydrating lotion and spot clearing cream! XD
<3 ORANGE!
<3 PINK!
<3 SKY BLUE!
<3 LAVENDER!
<3 BLACK!
<3 WHITE!
<3 bible study. :)
<3 youth camp'05. X)
<3 mission trip '06. :)
<3 ROCK THE WORLD concert'06 :D
<3 CCBC, my church youth. :x
<3 RBC's youth too. :x
<3 having very 'jumpy' worship. X)
<3 very FUNNY and 'reality check' sermons. X)
<3 hanging out with the people i love or even the guy! hahas. XD
<3 going overseas with friends or ppl i love. X)
<3 having combined youth with RBC. XD
<3 hanging out with theLOOKALIKES, AH-DAMandMICH.
<3 spending time with my adam kor kor and albert kor kor. :)
<3 talking on the phone with albert kor kor.
<3 being protected by my kor kors. XD
<3 having to go out with my couzziex.
<3 having you around me.:x
<3 frenx from everywhere. :x
<3 waking up late. heex.X)
<3 making up and go out. XD
<3 going out with friends.X)
<3 SHOPPING! XD
<3 SLEEPING! :D
<3 SINGING! :D
<3 SMILING! x)
<3 the 4 Sssss.. (the above four!)
<3 LAUGHING! :)
<3 DANCING! X)
<3 practically everything that got to do with MUSIC. X)
theHATES. PUKE!
but i shall FORGIVE and FORGET.
hate being accused! hate PEOPLE WHO LIKE TO PICK ON ME ALL THE TIME FOR NO PARTICULAR REASON!!! AGH!!(damn them man.) hate backstabbers! hate people that think they are the best!(nobody except GOD is perfect.) hate ACT as ah lian/ah beng! when they are SO NOT! hate liers! (even i do lie sometimes.x)) hate having 'rents bossing around and taking privacy from me! agh!! hate act ke lian to absorb guys' attention. (eww. so gross.) hate those that treat me so warm then after a while then so cold.
theWISHES.:)
~` be more devoted to GOD. (durr.)
~` grow in GOD more and more each day.
~` do my QT regularly. :D
~` combine CCBC's youth with RBC's youth. XD
~` hang out with the RBC's youth more. XD
~` able to go to mission trip'07. :D
~` have the fun people to go to mission trip'07. :) eg. prisy, michelle and adam.
~` have a job that is close to my passions. eg. DJ, freelance photographer.
~` the guy that i like to like me in return. X)
~` have more freedom. (which teen doesn’t want this?)
~` can have more privacy.
~` not so slack!!
~` to go to the best class every year.
~` stop all rumours about me and some odd weirdball.
~` have confidence in myself.
~` have greater hair and hair-do. x)
shout AMEN! (:
theSONG.:)
Beat of my HEART
To the beat of my
To the beat of my
To the beat of my heart
I'm thinking about,
Letting it out.
I wanna give in,
I wanna go out.
Been looking around
I've finally found,
The rhythm of love,
The feeling of sound.
It's making a change,
The feeling is strange.
It's coming right back.
Right back in my range.
Not worried about anything else,
I'm waking up
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart.
[Chorus:]
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
It tears us apart.
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
Now I'm back to the start.
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart,
I'm up from my down.
I turn it around.
I'm making it back,
I'm not gonna drown.
I'm taking a stance.
I won't miss a chance.
I want you to see
I'm not scared to dance.
The way that you feel
Could never be real.
I want you to know I finished the deal.
So I'm sayin to you
I'll always be true.
To the rhythm inside,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart,
[Chorus]
Away Away,
Away Away,
Away Away,
Away Away,
Away Away,
Away Away,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart,
Away Away,
Away Away,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
It tears us apart,
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
Now I'm back to the start,
[Chorus]
Away Away,
Away Away,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart,
Away Away,
Away Away,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart
JESUS will surely be with me ALWAYS, to the VERY END of
age.
8th April 2007 - 10.16pm
HALLOS HALLOS! hahas. (: OMG! im so happy today! I GOT BAPTISED TODAY!!!! :D :D :D :D :D hahas. what really touched me is that, the presents i got from adam kor kor, priscilla, uncle chee meng, auntie mee ling, auntie margaret, wei wei shu shu and hoe hoe shu shu! the photo i took dun have wei wei shu shu and hoe hoe shu shu de cos its in the car now. hahas. XD anws, i was really very touched that I CRIED TEARS OF JOY! hahas. for the FIRST TIME! hahas. all these time, tears are SOUR and BITTER but these tears are SWEET like honey! OMG!! hahas. (:
i open PASTOR DAVID'S first. it was a cute little pillow! of cos NOT for sleep. the words on it was so meaningful. it says "May you be blessed each & every day, with Love, Joy & Peace in adundance I pray. May you receive every good gift from above. May God show you how deeply you are Loved!" AWWW.... so damn sweet lahhs!! hahas. so i did say the correct thing at the workshop in the march holis. when we are supposed to say something praising ourself, i said "I'M LOVED!" hahas. (:
next, i opened AUNTIE MARGARET'S. she gave me a cd. her card was so encouraging, you know! aww!!!! AHHS! if i ever think of suicide, i just need to read these cards. i'll throw away all my tools of suicide man! hahas. (:
finally, ADAM KOR KOR'S PRESENT. adam kor kor gave me the coca-cola bottle. if you see the state it was given to me, you'll be like "cant be anything nice" but when i open,.. OMG! i immediately feell like crying! hahas. (: tears of JOY, of cos. but i controlled. hahas. i dunno if i remembered correctly, but he once told me that he keeps these "old" bottles of coca-cola and he treasures them a lot. AWW...!!!!!! hahas. i really really have to control SUPER HARD.
lastly lastly!!! PRISCILLA'S PRESENT. OMG! i read the postcard she, auntie mee ling and uncle chee meng wrote to me. OMG! it was so touching! "so glad & proud of you! what a great birthday present to yourself! yeah, you really have grown alot in the Lord these few years! yeap. just a cd for you& hope you like it. couldn't find Hillsong's latest album cos the life bookshop I went so loussy! HAHA. but if I'm not wrong inside got "How Great"!!!" priscilla wrote this to me! hahas. OMG LAHHS! the cd she bought was one of the cds i've been eyeing lahhs! still say "hope i like it"?! hahas. i LOVED LOVED LOVED it!!! im listening to it now! hahas. (: (:
okays... i cant stand it! i cried! hahas. (: im really SO SO SO TOUCHED! hahas. (: really wanna thank God for all these wonderful buddies i got!
anws, i havent say what happened in the baptism, right yet. hahas. i thought i can dun say my testimony but when today, i go to church then i saw the bulletin. it said "testimony and baptism" i was like "DAMN!" hahas. (: then how?! so i hurried borrowed a pen from charmaine and quickly scribbled out a simple testimony. then i quickly go back to the sermon. then after that, i just wanted to put my comb inside my "baptism bag". and guess what?! i found out that my shirt is NOT inside! DAMN IT!!! hahas. (: i was in total lost! then i asked my mum what to do. then she say i wear my black yoga shirt later to the pool. then i wear my "music is my business" shirt after i come out. so... i just did so lohhs. (: TIME'S UP!!!! DING DONG DING!! im going to get married to GOD!!! AHHSS!!! scared yet happy and excited!!! hahas. (: i said my testimony, which turned out quite funny. hahas. cos MANY PEOPLE LAUGHED! hahas. (: WOO... guess how i started?! hahas. ? (: "oh man! im scared!" HAHAS. XD then i started my testimony with a question and answer. i said "if you want to be spiritually high, you MUST go for mission trip!" hahas. (: then i also quoted adam kor kor's sentence. "even if God is sleeping but he is still ALIVE!" amen?! hahas. (: of cos, i gave the credit to him lahhs! hahas.(: but!!!!! he haven come!!!! GRRSSS!!!!!! adam kor kor and michelle is supposed to come for my baptism but then they overslept! so they were SUPER SUPER LATE! when i finished my testimony, they havent even come!!!! GRRSS!!!! im angry! . hahas. (: kidding! err... but he managed to see me in the pool. i didnt wear my specs, so i cant see anything! hahas. (: except for the water and pastor, that is. hahas. :D then when i was baptised le, then i came out. i need to take my bag in so, i changed then hurried out to take my bag. hahas. (: but hohhs, cos i never dry my feet then wear my palms. so i kinda almost slipped. hahas. (: SO MA LOO!!!! hahas. XD then ya lohhs. i saw adam kor kor!!!! i feel like strangling him, baby!!! hahas. (: anws, then i took my bag then went in then i come out properly. but with SUPERB FIZZY HAIR! hahas. XD but i took super SUPER duper many photos! hahas. (: when i got downstairs, people were congratualating me and passing me my baptism presents. SIGHS~~~!!! im so encouraged. hahas. (: just that simple "CONGRATUALATIONS!!" make so much difference!!! hahas. (: then... ya lohhs.. my aunt called me to go already! SO FAST!!! i feel so guilty! adam kor kor and michelle all the way from woodlands come here, then not even 15 minutes. then i go le. so EVIL, hohhs?! YA!!! TREMENDOUSLY EVIL-ILOUS!!! hahas. (: then ya lohhs, we went to far east. my aunt went to wash her hair, then me, kai wen and charmaine go shop shop. haha.(: then we went to eat in mum's kitchen then we go back. (:
oh oh oh... its already very late. 11.12pm. hmm.. should i carry on with what happened on friday? hahas. i think i should. hahas. cos its SUPER JUICY! hahas. (: okays.. hmm... i'll make this super DUPER SHORT. THURS, royl said "i like you also." hahas. (: OMG!!!!! hahas, then ON FRIDAY! i watched "it started out with a kiss" its a taiwan drama. hahas. (: i watch and watched cos no one was at home except for me, DURR!! through out the show, there were screaming of happiness and tears of sadness. while watching, i also got chat with calvin on sms. hahas. he smsed me aasking if i got go for the movie. i was curious, i mean.. he asked for what. hahas. hahas. so i just asked why lehhhs? then he replied saying that if i go, he'll go or not then no. hahas, (: once again, i was super curious. why? why i dun go, he'll not go? hahas. guess what he replied? "cause no fun." that means!!! IM FUN!!! hehhehs, (: then i told him that im watching dvd, screaming!!! hahas, (: then he say i very crazy, wonder who will like me?! hahash.(: then i say got, royl lahhs. hahs. he just like told me ytd. hahas, (: then he asked me i got accept. hahas. of cos not.. DURR!!! anws, straight to the JUICY POINT, he said in one sms "I c...dat means u nt despo.gd...wat if i sae i still lyke only u,but nt others.wat will u do?" hahas. i was like "WHAT?!" hahas. (: anws, THE END!!! hahas. (": i really need to go sleep. im going to do my exercise then i sleep. NITES people! may God bless your dream, yeahhs! (:
HAPPY EASTER DAY, amen!!! XD
Psalm 68:19 P R A I S E be to the LORD, to GOD our SAVIOR, who daily bears our burdens.