<3 GOD, JESUS, HOLY SPIRIT. -trinity (durr.):X
<3 my faMiLy. especially my mummy. mUaCkx. :X
<3 my NO.1 passion, MUSIC!!! deahDEAHdeahDEAH... mUaCkx. X)
<3 my NO.2 passion, PHOTOGRAPHY! chingCHINGching! mUaCkx. X)
<3 devOtEd tO GOD de eunice jiE jiE and sElf-tHinK naivE dE evan gOr gOr. mUaCkx. :X
<3 my cOuzziEx. mUaCkx. :X
<3 my darlings. :x
<3 hui ming and prisy. (two of my darlings.) :X
<3 shuaiSHAUI and KAIWAIYINEHH de adam kOr kOr. muackish muack muack!:X
<3 BIG BULLY de albert kOr kOr. muackish muack muack!:X
<3 PIGpig de andy gOr gOr. :x
<3 tallTALL de gOr gOr, jason. :x
<3 cute and fat de di di, bryan.:x
<3 chioCHIO de mEi mEi cum "PING", jolynn.:x
<3 gorjiedimei. \X/ :x
<3 "PIANG", cai yun. :x
<3 "PING! PONG! PIANG!" :x
<3 WATER! the BEST dehydrating lotion and spot clearing cream! XD
<3 ORANGE!
<3 PINK!
<3 SKY BLUE!
<3 LAVENDER!
<3 BLACK!
<3 WHITE!
<3 bible study. :)
<3 youth camp'05. X)
<3 mission trip '06. :)
<3 ROCK THE WORLD concert'06 :D
<3 CCBC, my church youth. :x
<3 RBC's youth too. :x
<3 having very 'jumpy' worship. X)
<3 very FUNNY and 'reality check' sermons. X)
<3 hanging out with the people i love or even the guy! hahas. XD
<3 going overseas with friends or ppl i love. X)
<3 having combined youth with RBC. XD
<3 hanging out with theLOOKALIKES, AH-DAMandMICH.
<3 spending time with my adam kor kor and albert kor kor. :)
<3 talking on the phone with albert kor kor.
<3 being protected by my kor kors. XD
<3 having to go out with my couzziex.
<3 having you around me.:x
<3 frenx from everywhere. :x
<3 waking up late. heex.X)
<3 making up and go out. XD
<3 going out with friends.X)
<3 SHOPPING! XD
<3 SLEEPING! :D
<3 SINGING! :D
<3 SMILING! x)
<3 the 4 Sssss.. (the above four!)
<3 LAUGHING! :)
<3 DANCING! X)
<3 practically everything that got to do with MUSIC. X)
theHATES. PUKE!
but i shall FORGIVE and FORGET.
hate being accused! hate PEOPLE WHO LIKE TO PICK ON ME ALL THE TIME FOR NO PARTICULAR REASON!!! AGH!!(damn them man.) hate backstabbers! hate people that think they are the best!(nobody except GOD is perfect.) hate ACT as ah lian/ah beng! when they are SO NOT! hate liers! (even i do lie sometimes.x)) hate having 'rents bossing around and taking privacy from me! agh!! hate act ke lian to absorb guys' attention. (eww. so gross.) hate those that treat me so warm then after a while then so cold.
theWISHES.:)
~` be more devoted to GOD. (durr.)
~` grow in GOD more and more each day.
~` do my QT regularly. :D
~` combine CCBC's youth with RBC's youth. XD
~` hang out with the RBC's youth more. XD
~` able to go to mission trip'07. :D
~` have the fun people to go to mission trip'07. :) eg. prisy, michelle and adam.
~` have a job that is close to my passions. eg. DJ, freelance photographer.
~` the guy that i like to like me in return. X)
~` have more freedom. (which teen doesn’t want this?)
~` can have more privacy.
~` not so slack!!
~` to go to the best class every year.
~` stop all rumours about me and some odd weirdball.
~` have confidence in myself.
~` have greater hair and hair-do. x)
shout AMEN! (:
theSONG.:)
Beat of my HEART
To the beat of my
To the beat of my
To the beat of my heart
I'm thinking about,
Letting it out.
I wanna give in,
I wanna go out.
Been looking around
I've finally found,
The rhythm of love,
The feeling of sound.
It's making a change,
The feeling is strange.
It's coming right back.
Right back in my range.
Not worried about anything else,
I'm waking up
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart.
[Chorus:]
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
It tears us apart.
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
Now I'm back to the start.
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart,
I'm up from my down.
I turn it around.
I'm making it back,
I'm not gonna drown.
I'm taking a stance.
I won't miss a chance.
I want you to see
I'm not scared to dance.
The way that you feel
Could never be real.
I want you to know I finished the deal.
So I'm sayin to you
I'll always be true.
To the rhythm inside,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart,
[Chorus]
Away Away,
Away Away,
Away Away,
Away Away,
Away Away,
Away Away,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart,
Away Away,
Away Away,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
It tears us apart,
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
The beat of my heart,
Now I'm back to the start,
[Chorus]
Away Away,
Away Away,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart,
Away Away,
Away Away,
To the beat of my,
To the beat of my heart
JESUS will surely be with me ALWAYS, to the VERY END of
age.
written on paper : 15th March 2007 - 10.26pm written in com : 16th March 2007 - 9.43pm sighs. what kind of march holiday is this?! i cried like so much. can fill up tonnes of buckets man. many things happened in just like.. 4 days. sighs.. my laptop had crashed. ): which is a TOTAL BUMMER! and what's worst, is that i did something rather foolish. sighs.. i thought that it was right. which of cos, turn out not to be the case. cos i instead hurt myself. sighs. i also dunno why i did it, but sadly, what has been done cannot be done. but there is no point in crying over split milk too. i regretted saying it out, yet i know that this is the correct thing to do and this is what i want others to do when im in the same situation. okays.. i guessed you are like.. totally in loss of what im saying. err. i told calvin that somebody still likes him. hahas. i haven post up my other blogpost yet, so you guys dunno who is "that somebody". its still in my laptop but since my laptop crashed so i havent post it up yet. i dun even know do i have the chance. my laptop may just POOF from my life. )': sighs. anws, i helped that somebody to get back her love, which is also mine. CALVIN. ): do you know that its is like breaking up with the boyfrined that you still like? i had that experience, so obviously i used that as a comparison. sighs. but no matter what, its still sad. cos i once asked calvin when i first noticed that somebody's love for him, "what will you do if say she like you?" i smsed this to him. and guess what he replied. ): "i jio her lohh." i was like in total bizzare! and just minutes before, he still say he love me so dearly and he will try to make me like, or rather love him. WHATEVER! im already in love, my dear! okays. "i gave my love away" i kept singing this, the day after i told calvin. it was tuesday, and err.. wednesday too. cos we were chatting about midnight. so... depends on how you see bahhs. anws, then after i told him, he said stuffs that isnt really pleasant to say to me cos i like him. until i really cant stand it and i just claimed that i wanna sleep. nites. A SHARP NITES, no sweet dreams and whatever. that shows im faking. hahas. bitchy huhh?! i mean like how to sleep in this heart breaking state! anws, he replied something any girl in my position will go "OUCH!" he said something along the lines of "dun be love rivals, okays. and dun be sad too." whatever..! cant remember what he said, but this is what he meant anw. i was like "SHUT UP!" i, of course didnt reply that. but that was how i actually feel inside. that night, i cried. im not as strong as i seem to be. i was reading my maths and i on my com cos i wanna hear the songs. then i was so sad i do not know what i was doing. then i accidentally knocked over the water bottle onto my laptop. AGH! the bottle wasnt closed. DAMN IT! then "PSST!PSST!POOF!" my laptop's screen went off. ):i cant stand it. i prayed and i cried. i really cant find other ways. and guess what, praying and crying out to God really really helps. REALLY! no kidding! but was i right in crying out? ya... of cos, its right. cos God longs for us to go Him. but i do to Him only when i need Him. or not i practically throw God to the back of my brain. ): sighs... even though, God heard me. (: and im totally glad at that. but anws, im writing these on paper so im like will skip some details. or not i will use exceptionally more time and energy. anws... i just sms calvin asking him to chat with me for a while. but to no avail, he didnt reply. sighs. im practically scrilbbling now. sigh sigh sighs... so i shall not write too much today. on wed, i went to my aunt's house to watch "devil beside me". as you know, im quite dampened, or rather, very dampened. the last episode of "devil beside me" was SO SAD! ): ): it was really really REALLY sad! i cried liek so much. okays. illustrate ahhs. how long does an episode normally last? about 45 minutes? ya, bout there. i go by taiwan show time. anws, how long the show last, was how ling i cried. and that excludes the time, i go toilet and taking the tissues, so on and off. it was so so so sad! sighs... i cried like so so so much too! heys, i not only have to clean my tears, alright. i still have the mucus running out from my nose. hahas. then plus, im in a very dampened mood. WOAHS... i cried even harder. i cried everything practically. from the show to my lovelife and to my com. sighs. "LOVELIFE" how pathetic. there are so many BETTER GUYS out there. yet, i and that somebody just cant seem to unlove him. ): making our life a total mess. he is such a DEVIL. but the "devil beside me"'s devil only love ONE girl not like calvin. the FLIRTATOUS, FICKLE-MINDED FREAK! heys, all start with "f" lehhs. no no, no f***. not good. (: anws, i better not say any further. or not i'll end up like the past few days. hugging mimi and crying to my dreams. psst! i also see that somebody's blog. and when i saw her latest post de ending was real cool. its went something like. " 'i love you' has eight letters, so does 'bullshit'. " OMG, nice one! hahas. i hope we both, one day could say this together to calvin, yeahhs?! hahas. (: psst! psst! i forgot to mention that i cried so much on tues night that my dustbin was filled with teared tissues. "with teared tissues in my dustbin, i gave my love away.
Psalm 68:19 P R A I S E be to the LORD, to GOD our SAVIOR, who daily bears our burdens.
